the ship leaves port

(journal page)

I finished my job at the library yesterday. It was completely hectic right up to the minute I left so I didn’t have any time to contemplate my leaving.

Today once I’ve dropped M at school I will come home. It will be very quiet. I will have nowhere I have to be until 2.30pm.

I am knackered. I’m a bit scared. I’m not going to expect too much of myself today….and I’m going to try not to freak out.

I have never walked away from a job without something to go on to before. This decision is an investment in myself and my writing.  I really hope it pays off! (I don’t mean financially, although that would be nice, too.)

It took me much longer than I intended to get my first book finished, nearly ten years! I’m determined the next book/s won’t take so long. I’m aiming to have two books done by the end of 2013. Wish me luck!

Here’s some quotations I like about courage/fear:

“Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear.”

-James Neil Hollingworth

“Most of our obstacles would melt away if, instead of cowering before them, we should make up our minds to walk boldly through them.” 

-Orson Swett Marden

“The bravest thing you can do when you are not brave is to profess courage and act accordingly.”