Author: helenlehndorf

  • Rocky Outcrop hits The Swamp in just one week…

    This time next week I will be sipping chamomile tea to calm my nerves because I’ll be mere hours away from chairing the Palmerston North leg of the Rocky Outcrop Tour of Kirsten McDougall, Ashleigh Young and Pip Adam. RockyOutcrop BIG

    Who are these people?

    They have a blog for the tour – you can read a bit about them here on their about page. 

    Pip Adam is my friend so I am completely biased in my opinions of her, but trust me – the woman is brilliant and so is her book ‘Everything We Hoped For’ – stories full of searing honesty and humanity, I’ve read it several times and it gets richer with each reading. Steve Braunias once called Ashleigh Young a ‘poppet genius’ – a claim no doubt hard for her to live up to because how can one present as a ‘poppet’ past the age of about seven? but the notion that she is often genius in her musings is hard to argue with. Kirsten McDougall’s debut novel ‘The Invisible Rider’ examines with great insight and compassion the inner life of an ordinary and very recognisable man, doing his best and worrying about myriad contemporary problems. It a compassionate and absorbing read.

    Each writer will read some of their work and there will be a conversation about writing, as well. These are three exciting and dynamic writers, who have all written remarkable first books. It is a FREE event – woohoo! – but do consider bringing some cash along to buy a book or two, perhaps.

    I hope to see you there, Palmerston North locals!

  • porch sitting

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    It’s quite the year for foxgloves – they have self-seeded everywhere and are growing tall and pretty, especially around the front porch.

    People don’t seem to use front (street-facing) porches, but mine gets the morning sun, so I put a little table made from an old sewing machine base and chair there for morning cups of tea. Passers-by always startle if they spot me – as if I were lurking on my own property, ha ha!

    Sun has been a rare thing around here this spring and I’m despairing a bit at my vegetable garden. Seeds I have planted are not sprouting (could it be because we’ve had an unseasonal frost every week since September?) and the summer seedlings I’ve planted are either not growing at all or are withering. It doesn’t look like a November garden.

    But on the mornings a bit of sun does show up…

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  • a southwards weekend, in pictures

    I nipped southwards to visit Emma last weekend. The trip began with a southwards train trip at dawn and ended with bus journey through the Manawatu Gorge at dusk. I met Emma in Wellington for some city rambles before we went over the Rimutakas to Featherston. Here is a photo essay of the weekend:

  • Pioneer cooking for energy efficiency

     

    In an effort to be more energy efficient, save money on bills and be more organised with food practices, for the last few years I have gotten into viewing a warm oven like a pioneer woman would. What do I mean by that? Well, as anyone who has read ‘Little House On The Prairie’ will know, pre-electricity, getting an oven hot took a lot of human and resource energy, so people would do all sorts of things with the oven while it was hot, and even cooling – making the most of it.

    Of course these days I can have a hot oven at the flick of a dial, but I try to respect the energy it took to heat the oven, and save money on my gas bill by using the heat for multiple things and trying to avoid heating it just for one purpose.

    This takes a little bit of organisation, lateral thinking and time, but once you get into the swing of it, it becomes second nature.

    Once the oven is turned off – it stays hot for a long time! Think up ways to use the warm but cooling oven. I have a few suggestions below but would like more…

    Here are some of the ways I maximise a hot oven – if you have other suggestions, please let me know in the comments!

    -when baking, if I’m baking a cake, or biscuits or muffins – I often bake a double mixture, freezing excess for school-lunches or whatever, so I’m not heating the oven to make one thing

    -bake multiple things at once…a cake, a loaf of bread, some muffins…

    -when baking, think ahead to dinner – could you use the heat of the oven to roast or bake something for dinner so you don’t have to later?

    -when baking, wrap potatoes in foil and tuck them around the baking trays, then take them to work for an easy lunch

    -when baking, pour two inches of rice into a casserole dish, cover with stock until stock is about two inches above rice. Put lid on, put in oven. Check occasionally to make sure there is enough liquid. The rice will absorb the stock, cook, and you will end up with yummy flavoured baked rice for re-heating at dinner time or for a salad base.

    -when baking, why not also whip up something for lunch? Beat eggs, add greens and cheese. Grease muffin trays, pour in eggy mixture and you have a dozen baseless ‘quiches’ for lunch with minimal effort!

    -put a mixture of dried fruit into a small oven dish (apricots, dates, figs, prunes, sultanas, whatever), add a couple of teaspoons of spices (cinnamon, ginger – whatever flavours you are fond of), cover with warm water, put lid on, put in oven. You will end up with delicious macerated fruit – yummy on cereal, ice-cream or by itself with whipped cream.

    -bake fresh fruit using same method as above…

    -put oats in an oven tray and toast the oats for muesli. You can add sweetners and oil to the oats, but you don’t have to – even toasting the oats without sweetners adds a lot of flavour

    -thinly spread roughly dessicated coconut on a pizza tray and toast. Toasted coconut is delicious spread over desserts, yoghurt or curries. (You have to watch it though – whip it out as soon as it goes lightly brown. It burns easily.)

    -toast nuts, or seeds. A yummy snack is stirring a tablespoon of tamari into one cup each of pumpkin seeds and sunflower seeds. Then toast. Delicious by itself or sprinkled over salads. Also adds a yummy crunch to sandwhiches.

    -in tomato season, if you have a tomato glut, or if they are really cheap and you buy a box or whatever, cut in half, brush with olive oil and put in turned off oven to make ‘sun-dried’ tomatoes. You will have to do this a few times to get entirely dry tomatoes, but even semi-dried tomatoes are delicious and intense in flavour, you will just have to use them up faster than dried.

    -if you have people over and you have used the oven to make dinner, put some kalamata olives in a about half a cup of olive oil, add finely grated lemon peel, herbs of your choosing and black pepper. Warm in the cooling oven and serve with bread. Olives are delicious at room temperature, but slightly warmed with these additions? SUBLIME.

    -turn elderly bread into croutons – cut into small squares, brush with oil using a pastry brush, bake

    -rice crackers gone stale? Don’t throw them out – put them on a pizza tray and put them into the oven after you’ve finished baking and oven is turned off. It brings them back to life. Works for wheat crackers, also.

    -if you are a gardener, keep your eggshells. Put them into the turned off, cooling oven. They will go dry and brittle, making them easy to crush up with a mortar and pestle (or just use a bottle!) for sprinkling onto your vege garden. They add calcium and trace elements to the soil. You can also sprinkle rings of egg-shell around brassicas and salad vegetables to deter slugs. (Of course the egg-shells will break down by themselves if you throw them whole into the compost, but this way they will break down much much faster and you can put them directly on the garden, skipping the compost heap.)

    -if you have a herb garden, use the turned off/cooling oven to dry herbs for cooking or herbal tea. Pick herbs, wash, dry very thoroughly with a tea-towel, spread thinly on an oven tray, put into oven. (I do this with lavender and it fills the house with a heady lavender smell.)

    -thinly grate lemon peel on the fine side of your grater, spread thinly on a pizza tray, put into a cooling/turned off oven. Then you have dried lemon peel for adding to cooking or making lemon salt.

    -use the turn off/cooling oven to dry dishes! If you are hand washing dishes, put some of the large, space-taking items like pots and pans into the warm oven to dry. Gets them off the bench, out of the way and drying so there is room for the rest of the dishes.

    OK! I hope that gives you some ideas, anyway. Now that I’ve been doing this a few years, I get all twitchy when I see people heat their ovens just to bake a dozen muffins! There will no doubt come a time when we have to return to some pioneering ways because of the world’s diminshing resources, so I am getting into the swing of it now. I hope I might have inspired you too, as well, if you weren’t already.

     

  • Stop!

    I spotted this sign in the small town of Norsewood….but I wish it would pop up in front of me at times when I have made questionable choices or ill-advised decisions.

  • 40

    So yesterday I turned 40.

    Here is me at three years old.

    This is my favourite photograph of me as a kid.

    I’m holding a quail that my father shot. I thought it was asleep.

    I carried it around and played with it for three days. Mum snuck into my room on the third night, took it off me (yes, I had it in my bed) and buried it. It was starting to smell. In the morning she told me it had flown out the window in the night.

    It sums up my character – I quite often will only see what I want to see, and I usually want to see the best-case scenario. This has led to a lot of battering by life, but I think it also makes me compassionate.

    My thirties began in my parent’s house in Taupo with an 80s party. The theme was ‘Come as yourself at 15’. There were lots of naughty schoolkids, punks, protestors and 80s fashionistas at the party (I mean the costumes of course…) I spent the night pogo-ing and 80s two-stepping to New Order, The Specials, Duran Duran and The Smiths. It was ace. Even more fun than the party was the next day when we all got up hungover and spent the whole morning eating breakfast and lounging around in our pyjamas. It was before everyone had kids and big sleepovers started to become too difficult, logistically.

    At thirty I had a two year old child and a nine year old marriage.

    My thirties have been so intense. They started fairly happy and then got quite dark and rocky for the latter part…but now the sun is returning.

    I feel like my latter thirties knocked the stuffing out of me quite a lot.

    I’ve felt forty for a few years, actually, so I’m happy that my chronological age has caught up.

    Things I wanted at the start of my thirties included:

    -to teach myself to knit, sew and grow vegetables

    -to buy a house

    -to become a yoga teacher

    -to publish a book

    -to have another baby

    -to learn to drive again (I stopped for many years – nerves!)

    -to conquer my irrational phobia of hospitals

    -to keep chickens

    -to walk the Tongariro crossing

    -to do collaborative community art projects

    -to find a spiritual community in Palmerston North

    -be part of a community garden

    I’ve done all those things!

    YAY!

    Here are some thoughts about all the stuff I wanted to achieve which I did achieve…

    -owning a house is wonderful when you have kids. After living in three different flats with baby Willoughby from when he was 0-2, having our own place felt heavenly and still does. I love being able to provide this security for my kids and am grateful everyday.

    -teaching yourself practical skills is empowering and fun

    -community projects are enriching, rewarding (at times frustrating) and worthwhile

    -your children really are your teachers. really really

    -publishing a book is nice. very nice. but at the same time it is also pretty meaningless and did not provide me with the sense of fulfilment I thought it would. I now see that nothing does, except your relationship with yourself!

    -Driving is very useful. Especially when you have kids. I am still a nervous driver. I have never driven in Wellington or Auckland. When I drive in the countryside at night I feel like I am in a horror film!

    -Chickens are wonderful companions. They make me practice chicken meditation – which is to throw them a bunch of kale or silverbeet and then sit in a patch of sun and watch them peck at it. I love my chickens.

    Thanks for reading this very ponderous pondering.

  • the creativity muscle

    I’ve spent so little time in my studio this year that I’ve been jokingly calling it “the cave of forgotten craft”.

    What with the new day-job and the intensity of the yoga-instructor training I’m doing, plus my general feeling of knackeredness which I’ve written about lately…the time and inclination to make stuff kind of ebbed away over the year.

    I can feel the desire to get back into it rising in me, which is a relief, because I was wondering if the yen had gone altogether.

    The other day I went into the cave of forgotten craft and it was a scene frozen in time of a busy and yes, untidy, person making several different things at once with a happy mess strewn around.

    I went in there, opened the window, pottered around tidying and remembering long forgotten projects and just kind of steeped in this abandoned part of of myself.

    When I teach journaling workshops, people often arrive like this – the desire for creativity is there, but there is a whole lot of ‘stuff’ in the way of their leaping in – fear, uncertainty, self-consciousness. The way through that is gentle baby-step exercises or as my friend Johanna calls it “throat-clearing”.

    Anyway, it was good to hang out in there. I’ve aired it out. I’ve tidied it. I’ve mooched. I emptied the rubbish bins and dusted the surfaces.

    Next time I go in there I might even…..make something.

  • the greatest thing in the world

    (Book cover spotted in an op-shop.)

    Auckland writer and academic JACK ROSS reviewed my book (and Aleksandra Lane’s) for the Landfall Review Online. You can read it HERE.

    It is a terrifying moment when you first read a review of your work – I feel a bit nauseous, I sort of squint at the screen as I read…bracing myself for the worst…and there is definitely that ‘wearing your undies in public’ feeling of having something of myself examined and evaluated by someone I don’t know. It’s a very weird feeling.

    I’m especially grateful to Jack Ross for acknowledging that I have a long publishing history prior to my book coming out and that I’ve been working away at this writing lark for a very long time. When you publish your first book, people often say things assuming you have popped up out of nowhere and the book was written recently. The Comforter took me OVER A DECADE to write…because I had children in that decade and because I kept working and needling, editing and fidgeting, waiting for my work to be as ‘perfect’ as the vision in my head….eventually I grew weary of all the fiddling and opted for ‘good enough’.

    Anyway, this review means so much to me…and I am very very extremely very grateful. Thanks, Jack Ross.

  • the journal project

    I’m writing two books at the moment (I think I’ve mentioned this before…), my second poetry collection and a book about my journals from 2000-2012. I’m turning 40 this year, the way I journal has kind of changed lately and I want to capture what my journals meant to me and did for me during the years my children were babies, then wee ‘uns. My journals really helped me stay sane during my most intensive stay-at-home-mother years. (I always had paid work, but I did it from home when my kids were wee.)

    Here’s some of the journal pages from this project – I’m also writing a long …essay? um, prose-something…to go alongside the original journal pages…

    I veer wildly with this project between thinking it is banal and self-indulgent, to thinking that perhaps it  DOES have some merit and might be interesting to other people. This week, happily, has been the latter.